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(no subject) [Apr. 1st, 2005|03:45 pm]
aMaNdA
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[Current Music |fall out boy-chicago is so two years ago]

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates aseven
your best quality isyoure responsible
your worst quality isyoure too sweet
this is becauseyoure true to yourself
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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where we finna go?? palm dale homies [Mar. 26th, 2005|05:31 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |satisfiedsatisfied]
[Current Music |afroman palmdale]

hey everyone!
since i wont update again this weekend let me just tell anyone who celebrates it, HAPPY EASTER! i hope all of your spring breaks are concluding on a good note, and to everyone in IB i hope your papers came out well. since i last updated things have changed a bit. well new things have happened. i am finally healing from sun poisoning which makes me happy but i didnt get to tan at all over spring break. too bad. which the beaches in delray are closed today nehow due to the sewege leakage.

well i want to be upfront with everyone because the things i do represent me as a person (if that makes any sense). and from now on i just want to be free of worrying, because it hurts alot and wastes time. i am tired of having to apologize for numerous misunderstandings, so i am sorry to anyone who is not feeling great towards me right now. because i never do nething that has bad intentions behind it, i never do anything to hurt someone on purpose. i dont want to argue just accept it if you like and lets move on. a journey into the furture....Bucccoooc!

i will finish later

*addition*
so as i mentioned my life is taking turns..in different directions. i am still the same person i just am embracing life and kind of becoming not so much of a wallflower anymore. i just dont know who wants to be really in my life or are my friends. so i cleared out my friends list, and i left on a few people who have really aided me in the last month or two, people who have just overall been there. i appreciate it. i still love everyone i just dont know who passes up my entries on their friends of page, and the people i left on dont. so to everyone else if you still want to be on my friends list then comment because from now on this will be friends only. much love, amanda
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everyones caught on to everything you do [Mar. 24th, 2005|08:51 am]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |calmcalm]
[Current Music |brand new- mix tape]

well i know people dont really read this, but i am home so i wanted to update. You see my last few updates didnt make sense. I am not trying to play different roles, or make one percieve me in different ways. Its just that one minute I will be very happy and the next i can be depressed like those entries. It could be hormones (haha) or maybe i need to start seeing a therapist again. Its just because i am trying ot hide alot of things and emotions, but i know that i should be appreciative of alot of things and know how lucky i really have it. and no one wants to listen to a girl always complainging it gets old, i know. so it isnt a coverup, i am not being fake, i am just tellin gyou things off the top of my head and heart.simply stated
so back to my life. i am up so early because danielle called. she is almost home. that makes me so happy. i probly will hang out with her today.
another thing i wanted to inform people of is that we are putting our house up for sale. i am only going to talk about this once until i know all the logistics but my mom wants to move again.
but i dont know if our house would sell so i am not jumping into things. the painter is coming to do touchups and the landscaper, we are having it appraised and we talked to realtors already.
just maybe if we move things will get better. i have been thinking about changing schools. But i def wouldnt go to pv and i hear boynton is really ghetto and as for boca, been there tried that, never ever ever again. so thats out of the question unless i moved up north with my dad, which i highly doubt i will be doing anytime since i really like florida. so i guess i will be at atlantic still.
hmm thats it for now i am going to figure out my day and i hope you all are having a great break!
<3amanda
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and i know youre just a sucker, for nething acoustic [Mar. 23rd, 2005|12:38 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |brand new]

hola my readers. well i just got home. life is pretty cool. yesterday i went to cookies early. and i met her friend lizzie who is really sweet. we just made pancakes and then got ready and went to the town center mall. oh and on the way we stopped and saw casey and spencer. nehow, the mall was cool. a girl named helen came. she is so freaking cute and has great style, and she was so nice! yep yep. so we all had good shopping. i really liked this roxy tube top and it tuned out i had a gift card for the store i didnt even know about so i got it...and i got a pair of shoes from old nacy and pj bottoms from delias. yessers so then brandon and his g/f liz met up with us and this guy ben i think his name was...then we all went to kava bar, and then to lizzie's since her rents are out of town. and later on we went over to caseys and then we went back to cookies and ordered pizza in the middle of the night. i am so glad i went with them. they are so nice. yeah so i just came home and melissa amanda tina and i are going to see ring 2 this afternoon and i think i will spend tonight at home since i plan to be out all day and at night thursday. my sun poising isnt noticable nemore, but i still feel it. i need to get to the doctors.
much love,
amanda
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2005|12:39 am]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |rejuvenatedrejuvenated]
[Current Music |mr brightside]

wow! things change so fast! i am back to being happy again. lol. for the rest of the night my phone kept getting calls about 10 maybe 12! yeah for me that is alot. well those people all made me super happy. and realize what direction spring break is headed in, and where i am headed in the social scene; meaning i am making friends. i talked to anthony, man i love that boy...we are so hanging out. i am gonna shorten this up, but this week looks like:

tuesday:cookie,brandon &co..sleepover

wednesday:cookie, then ring two with melissa, sleep at home

thursday:anthony hall and that crowd, sleep out
danielle comes home thurs maybe friday. this weekend sat and sun i hope to spend with her

sorry for being so down earlier, i guess i was just being lame i figured out the problem and people who cared assisted. thanks for the comments minus the one who was probably happy to read it.

its getting good
amanda
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(no subject) [Mar. 21st, 2005|06:55 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[Current Music |straylight run: existentialism on prom night]

i thought that this would be

a good spring break

the best i ever had

it sucks
its horrible
if i didnt believe in hell i would kill myself
this is what i HATE...this feeling of not belonging..this feeling that i bother people.

no one understands.

icouldnt reach cookie so i dont know about my plans for tomoro. and yes my curfew is too early to go to a party plus i dont even have a fucking ride, and i dont have ne fucking friends that are girls. i never feel right this doesnt feel right.

i called alyssa and she hung up, and then i called coral; that didnt go well. not that its their fault, but idk i am just not feeling great and this doesnt do me any better. theres so much i have tried to hide lately. and the other night when i cried with danielle there i let some of the pain out but i cant tell you. and wat makes matters worse is that someone is reading this with a grin spreading upon their face. and all i can say is congratufuckinglations, my sadness bring you joy.
i think i am going to go to sleep.

my body is made of skin & bones, so all you can see is a beating heart & a broken smile
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is that what you call tact? [Mar. 21st, 2005|01:55 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]
[Current Music |bn...soco amaretto lime]

hola, my fellow springbreakers.
well today is monday. and no i am not out at the beach or the mall or newhere where i would happen to collide with about 2.3 hundred people from school. lol. i am sitting in an empty office at my moms business and updating you on my life. which isnt that filled might i add. hmm.
okay, well here in the office i have just been taking inventory and working with labels and such. not to mention binding a bunch of paper, maybe tax returns..idk? oh how glamorous, correct? oh well w/e.
lemme get the whole around fam thing done so i can go out...pay my dues...respect my elders...i love familia. around midnight last night i went shopping online. and oh em gee, lemme tell you. i so want a credit card, which myne still hasnt come in?!, or i want to rob a bank, because hollister has alot of cute things and i want them all muahahaha.
ok enough of that shit. well so now the younger employees of my mother are convincing her that 12am is just so not suitable for my curfew. its so effin early!!!!! what ever happened to the days when i didnt have one?
ok so tonight? what will be up? i have no idea. ian called. and idk, i wish a girl would call me to hang out i just need to be around someone who i can relate to. or someone i can chat with idk.
my grandpa was hinting at buying a car for me? that woud be tizight. haha. but idk. right now i am just playing it cool. april 21st is the day i get my license. pretty pimp. i cannot wait.
today i keep listening to BN..i really like them i cannot possibly believe the things i have been missing out on.



oh god 11 year old here. reading me some nonsense from little teenybopper magazine TWIST. please some one help! eeek...welll much love-amanda
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its now spring break two zero zero five! [Mar. 19th, 2005|01:32 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |blankblank]
[Current Music |brand new]

HEY PEOPLE!

well its been spring break officially since 2:50 pm yesterday. so far so good.

well my plans didnt exactly pan out but when i was stranded at school i ran into danielle! oh yeah. i love her. so yeah she thought we were hanging out anyhow so i was like okay this will be great. which it so was. we saw alot of people from school and from out of school. great people, fresh and familiar faces. oh boy.

danielle brought me home a bit ago. when we were in the mountaineer and listening to donovan and brand new i realized that she is leaving tomorow. and it makes me down. i dont exactly know why, because she is only going to be gone for 4 days. but i am feeling this pang. but i think we are becoming close friends. and it makes me happy in that way that my eyes tear up?! lol i am so emotional. well yea. life is good. be good.

<3amanda

ps "dont party too hard" lol...inside joke.
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DRAMA FREE IS THE WAY TO BE! [Mar. 14th, 2005|04:27 pm]
aMaNdA
[Current Mood |ditzyPERKY]
[Current Music |SUGARCULT-SHE IS THE BLADE]

HEY READERS! WELL TODAY IS MONDAY. I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY. I GUESS THERE ARE MANY REASONS FOR THIS. TO START OFF I HAVE COME TO THE REALIZATIONS OF MANY THINGS. BUT BEFORE I EVEN SAY IT LET ME INFORM YOU ALL OF SOMETHING...

KAYLI'S SWEET 16 WAS AWESOME.....
i finally got to meet the famous micheal....delicious food..dancing...cool people..great family...awesome bday girl
I <3 KAYLI..SHE IS THE SHIT.

SO YES. THIS WEEKEND WAS MAD COOL. SERIOUSLY. EVEN THOUGH FRIDAY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING IT WAS OKAY I NEEDED TO RELAX, SOMETIMES GOD INTENDS THINGS TO HAPPEN. THEN SATUR-DAY WASNT AWESOME EITHER BUT SATUR-NIGHT WAS WICKED COOL. THERE WERE UNFORTUNATE THINGS OF THE EVENING I HAVE TO SAY GOODLUCK TO KAYLI ON FINDING WHAT IS MISSING. AND TO THE OTHER PEOPLE I HAVE TO SAY I HOPE YOU ALL OVERCOME THE SHIT THATS HAPPENED BUT I CONSIDER YOU ALL MY FRIENDS.
NOW, LAST YEAR I MET SOMEONE COOL I DIDNT REALIZE HOW GREAT THEY REALLY WERE TO THIS WEEKEND. AND THAT IS
</font></font>DANIELLE FROM THIS DAY ON I LOVE THAT GIRL. SHE HAS BRIGHTENED UP ALOT OF THINGS FOR ME. AND I AM NOW LOOKING AT THINGS ON THE BRIGHTSIDE, OH MAN THE GRASS IS GREEN.
I AM SORRY I HAVE BEEN DOWN FOR ALL THIS TIME. ITS SO GAY BEING DOWN. I GUESS I HAVE REALIZED THAT IN HIGH SCHOOL NOT TO GET ATTACHED TO ANYTHING B/C IT WONT BE THERE FOREVER. AND JEALOUSY DOESNT WORK AND NEITHER DOES SHIT TALKING. I AM SORRY IF I EVER SHIT TALKED YOU. I AM STOPPING. REALLY. I AM TIRED OF IT. AND LYING, WELL I NEVER HAVE TO BE HONEST BUT I AM NOT GOING TO DO THAT EITHER. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. AND I WANT THE PEOPLE AROUND ME TO BE TOO. AND IF I DONT LIKE YOU THEN WELL WHO CARES...ACTUALLY THERE ISNT NE1 I DONT LIKE , WAIT DIDNT I SAY I WASNT GOING TO LIE? LOL. OK WELL I TRY TO MAKE THINGS WORK ATLEAST AND I DONT LIKE TO NOTLIKE PPL. WELL THEN THATS THAT. OH AND HIGH SCHOOL IS FILLER WITH FAKES, BITCHES, AND ASSHOLES, BUT I CANT CHANGE THE WORLLD SO I GUESS I JUST LEANRED TO LIVE WITH IT. OH AND I MET BRITTANY SHERSTY, MAN SHE IS SO FUCKING NICE. THIS IS LONG SO I AM GOING TO GO. CHEM QUIZ TOMORO.  AND I HAVE TO REST I AM MONDO BURNED. IS WED LTM DAY? I SAW DAVID TODAY. HE MADE MY HEART GO BUDUMP BUDUMP(BUT REALLY FAST) HAHA. 
MUCH LOVE,
AMANDA

these following people have brodened my horizons lately and i owe thanks to them:
KAYLI, DANIELLE, CORAL, ASHLEY!!!, AMANDA, MELISSA, ZAINA, BRITTANY BLAIS, LINDSAY, DEADRA, MICHELLE, ALYSSA C, COURTNEY, KELLEN, COOKIE, BRANDON, JAMIE, ANYA, PAULINA,  LARA, MICAH, KIRSTIE, MY MAMMY, BILLY, AND THE JEFFS....

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dont you wish your g/f was hot like me? [Mar. 8th, 2005|04:19 pm]
aMaNdA

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