||[Jan. 25th, 2006|08:23 pm]
so its been a while.
i must say it has.
i have been reading old entries and thinking back.
and i am so uber emo
i miss those times in a way.
i mean not the way you may think.
but i was talking to an old friend tonight and i told her how i miss her and the old atlantic. and i started to realize how much i miss a lot of things.
i miss so much and i cant believe i am a junior. i mean it feels like 2 seconds ago i was a sophomore and i had friends to meet between classes and not many people on bad terms and inside jokes and funny things.
and then i blinked
i cant say i have had a horrid time. i have had great times. and big letdowns. and big excitements. but i guess the grass is always greener on the other side, right?
i love alot of aspects about my life now. like my family and josh. and i have more of an understanding and am less naive. but i feel like i have lost alot.
i miss brittany blais alot. i wish this summer hadnt happened the way it did. two entries before this one i was saying how she and i were going to havign a great summer. and we didnt. we had far from a summer together.
I guess God intends it to be that way.
i just want a friend who will say i am her best friend and give me her stuff and loan me clothes and like the stuff i say and laugh about
i am tired of feeling lost and stupid
well thats it for tonight i hope tomoros ltm will be better than my last.
ps i miss my dad