you can express your feelings however you want, and no one should tell you otherwise but common, you've been in that situation before. where you cried when someone told you something, or when you heard something. you say on the phone how you dont know what you did to this person or that person, and you say how your happy your life has no drama or your not fighting with anyone, but then you do something like that, was it honestly necessary to write it? if its their buisness, they can talk about it, they don't need you to do it for them. i'm trying to be sympathetic to the fact that you lost friends and you almost cried in front of me today, so cant you be sympathetic to the fact that what you say hurts people and maybe, just maybe you shouldnt say that one thing in particular? i know im no one to talk because i've opened my mouth numerous times, especially to you, so you know what it feels like, so just have the respect that you want and don't do something like that, and as for "look its a queer" or whatever, anybody can laugh and you can write that, but thats just being a bitch and mocking people. just try to see it from others perspective, and as for what you said about them talking about you, thats 100 percent false info. they dont talk about you, a few occasions have popped up about you, but shit wasnt being talked, let alone put on the internet. later amanda,
hey gene i think its really great that you are sticking up for your friends. and i would like you to consider this; you cant stand up for people all the time. yes the myspace thing is to mock them and i can be a bitch thats that and there isnt drama i just cant see how i write one thing such as look i am not as queer as you can cause such an uproar? and it also could just be telling everyone that. you know? it doesnt have to pertain to them necessarily although i admit it does, and i did it for laughs b/c everyone says how those names are well just nvm....its just funny too bad if its offensive. and i didnt hear until last friday the whole closet thing and that day about 6 people talked about it apparently mr your best friend was speaking and "bragging" about it in class. i dont care to be honest. they were my friends once upon a time but obviously not great ones if they forgot all about me over a course of a week. i am not the only one saying it so why dont you tell someone else who cares. thanks for trying to be sympathetic gene but i dont need your sympathetic b/c i am happy and i can live up to all the actions i do with no embarassment i will take into consideration that it isnt my business from now on but if it is topic of conversation i am allowed to put a two sense in. this shouldnt affect yours and my realtionship and if it does that is really pitiful. oh and as for me crying today i guess i felt that it shouldnt be you against me in their favor although you did it in a mature way. peace out, amanda
scott and jenna are there own adults and they can stick up for themselves, and i understand it, but dont tell me i cant stand up for people all the time, i mean, look how many of your friends are standing up for you. I was just trying to tell you my opinion, after all, this whole thing is proving that anyone can have opinions. It's just the way you put it out there that made me mad. Would it have hurt you or anyone else to not have posted it? No, you just posted it to get a response full of hate about them or something, thats just the way i see it, i mean, closet freaks, i will never lose myne to scott mcglothlin in a closet!!, thank God i never considered dating him. To me those seem a little un-necessary. And if my mr. best friend was talking about it, then let him, you dont have to do what hes doing. how many things have you told me recently? at the ave, on the phone? alot, but do i post entries about it, do i say shit about it, no, because now i respect you and your privacy. you can go talkign about it to whoever you want, but that doesnt make it right for me to go tell people. and don't disagree because i know you. And sorry for being sympathetic? Your allowed to put in 4 cents if you want, but realize that sometimes you can hurt people who you doubt would have gotten hurt. And this wont effect our relationship at all, its your battle (lack of good words) against the people you talk about, im just puttin MY two cents in. i mean, it is a topic of conversation now. and i'm not against you, im against what you did. Thats a difference. alright, well i'm out, laterrr.
2005-05-04 02:16 am (UTC)
this is the last carpal tunnel comment on my part
okay gene i am not trying to argue here, all i have to say is that i didnt use the term "closet freaks" it was said to me, and i dont care where their location is that is their business. i dont have time to talk about it let alone post posters in the hall. you make it seem like everyoene wants to here this fyi they all had negative feedback which by the way i didnt exactly add to if i do say so myself.
i heard about it later than anyone i know, and it came up on the phone with zaina, a comment was posted, and well it was like an inside joke excluding that everyone already knew! infact people approached the conversation when i was with them earlier that week, the only reason this journal ever was private or friends only was because of scott and your other friends. in the past you people have made me feel like shit and now i know i dont have to take it anymore and i am just taking a stand. and gene you could tell anyone whatever you want about what i told you b.c i know you well enough to know you have atleast told one person. thats why i spared details. so just know i was in the midst of all of this i didnt start anything. so whatever and just because they are doing something adult doesnt change the fact that they are no less of a kid than any high school student.
oh yeah gene thanks for that comment in the cafeteria last week about me being annoying. word does get around, its a good thing i dont care anymore. and yeah you dont know me, time doesnt measure the depth of how well you know a person i guess ppl were right about you being twofaced. this is high school lets all just move forward.
and i do stand up for my friends hardcore but only when someone else is completely in the wrong. and i am not.
much love, amanda
they arent standing up for me they are supporting me.
...those were your thoughts and your words. i said it because i was mad at what you did in the cafeteria. your right, this isnt a fight, but that last entry you wrotre sure as hell made it seem like one.."this shouldnt affect yours and my realtionship and if it does that is really pitiful." read that, then read the comment you just posted, and tell me who might be the one acting pitiful. i was speaking my mind as you have, and "fyi" not one person has known what you told me. bye amanda, hopefully you'll see what you write as i do and realize your being completely...bitchy?
i was purposely being bitchy i even wrote it in my entry. i dont care if i actually did something wrong you dont need to talk shit to other people. it just showed them your character and i was informed the stuck up for me. i am not acting pitiful you see i guess if i have to go back and fourth over this. it was all a joke to me. and you made it some serious thing against me?! oh well you can tell ppl b/c alot of people know anyhow. "in high school nothing is a secret unless its with yourself"-sarah souede. i think thats true. i want you to understand that one day its not going to matter who had sex in a closet and bragged about it around school or who talked about it. (i found out a week after it happened and i didnt tell ne1 who didnt tell me) its going to matter the type of people you had backing you up and there for you. you dont need to go back to being an ass gene i am stating facts. and i am right. you see the difference between us is i post my personal thought on my own journal and your personal thought are also featured here, which arent greatly wanted but then again i havent blocked you yet so i dont mind. i guess i dont want akwardness i didnt make a fight i made it like hey i can stand up for myself why cant you?
much love, amanda
actually its "LOOK im not as queer as you"
and, if somebody didnt want their business out of the closet (i crack myself up.)it wouldnt have been talked about to begin with. so in other words, you cant really say anything to amanda for reacting to it.
im not saying she cant react to it, she can do whatever the hell she wants, she can put an entry up about it, she can write it on the walls, she can do whatever she pleases, i never told her she couldnt, i just wanted her to know that she didnt have to do it the way she did, making fun of them, posting it all over the internet, this journal isnt exactly private or freinds only. she could have made posters about it and brought it to school, that wasnt the point though, what is, is that the way she did it or said it, wasnt exactly right.
well i can agree with you that it is never right to talk about other people. but gene, non of us are a good canidate for that conversation. "he who is without sin cast the first stone"
if you ask me, i dont think anything amanda did was horrible. she didnt make an entire journal entry about these people and post it in font 72 bold letters. she wrote a comment to her friend which by no means could be considered posting all over the internet.
and amanda needs no help from me to stick up for herself. i was just, as everyone else, adding my 2 cents.
i think this is cookie. i hate it when your right. your points were right, but amanda talking about my friends like that..(she is also or was, before that comment, wutever she decides)..it hurts them, people read it, people who are firends with my friends get mad..we talk to amanda, i just wanted amanda to be aware that she genuinely hurt those who she talked about, now they might be laughing about it, but talking about a person is never right, and theres no excuse, so im sorry amanda for talking about you.
gene i gave up along time ago i mean my friend josh has taught me that i read too much into what friends are. so i guess we will always be friends just i shouldnt care so much or whatnot. i dont particularly care if people in siberia are laughing about this. all i have to say is i only did this as controversy i love how i say one thing and people make a big deal? not really sarcastically. but i never saw you stick up for me once when i was hurt by a number of those folks, in fact as i recall you kicked me when i was down. enough of that just watch where you say things gene there are times called for this type of thing and today wasnt one of them. its good you are sorry, although you have said it enough times to me i could write a story book on it. i guess its accepted but not with jumps of joy. and even though i care about you, i dont care who ever else i may have hurt i am not being heartless i just dont need guillt i live with out regrets <3 amanda
you caught me ♥. gene i dont think you were wrong for defending your friends, because obviously i do the same thing. we both have different opinions on this topic so i dont really see it going very further. but thanks for your opinion, and im glad you apologized to amanda for talking about her. it only makes you a better person.